To the Everwood’s…May you Stand Tall There…For All Time…

I went to see my favorite tree last night…to perform my full-moon ritual…and she was gone.  Just uplifted dirt, a few of her limb’s  and the base of her trunk remained.  I have gone to her many times over the last few year’s…she lived in a secluded reserve…a native tree to my country…a Pohutukawa Tree.

I started to shake and cry.  I stood for ten minutes feeling my pain then I thought…no.  I am not going to approach her in sadness…I am going to perform a ritual and give thank’s for her life.  I wiped away my last tear, gathered my emotion’s and walked up to her…I swept away the dirt and made her pretty…I put candles all around her trunk -base and the flower’s and fruit that I had brought I placed upon her with gentle purpose. I gathered the saw dust and arranged it like hair and placed her branches close by her side.  I stroked her remains with all my Earth-Mother might. I kept telling her that I loved her…over and over.  I made a connection…to ALL trees…to ALL The Fallen Ones.  To every creature who has ever ‘come home’ to find their Tree Mother gone. The Moon shone down upon us and as I lifted my face to Her I asked Her to come to us…to cloak us…to hold us in her Light.  I then stood to my feet and performed my ritual…the word’s came from my lip’s…but I feel that it was not I who invented them to be spoken…I felt humbled by this beyond measure.

I have been in a daze today. Very quiet. Last night was life-changing…as in…I have changed because of what took place.  On the one hand I don’t what it all mean’s but I DO know for certain that the purpose to the rest of my life…the key to it…was revealed and presented itself to me…clearly.  What I do with this ‘key’, where I take it, what I find to ‘unlock’…well I guess that part is up to me…all I know…is that it was one of the most sacred night’s of my life…and I am beyond grateful…

Blessed Be to One and ALL….your loving Miss Moonsparkle xxx Always…

ME AND THE FOREST AND THE FOREST AND ME

I am so darn happy I could go to a forest and hug sixty tree’s! Whoa there Tonto….wait…I did already!

I am not a one-way-or-no-way kinda being….I have a HUGE respect for the big ol wide gambit of ALL creature’s…everything under the Sun and Moon and everything beyond them….whoever you are…whatever you believe in…I am only ever going to come at ya in LOVE.  If your a mean person who does mean thing’s intentionally to creature’s then I am not going to align myself with you but I will always ask the Universe…ALL the Higher Power’s to ‘go to you now’ to give you Medicine….in which ever way ‘they’ see fit…I will always pray ‘For the Highest Good of ALL’…if I don’t understand, if I am confused to the point of numbness…then I have to ‘hand it over and UP’….in the name of Love.

I have stopped falling down the rabbit-hole…those last few months….ew!…ME NOT LIKE! Well lets face it…change is always only going to be comfortable or wet-socks kinda torrential… Well in that case I had wet hair, wet pants, and mascara melted into my cheek-bones…my heart was all raw and weepy and when I looked into the mirror I saw like a 100 year old Death-Metal-Band- member version of my Mother starring back at me…(you know what I mean Ma…stress is a tad aging and um….visually concerning.)

I really am in a new Wonderland…feeling much better and then some!  Not wanting to blow my own pan-pipe or anything but the other day a sparrow flew onto my lap in the forest and stayed there twittering beautifully to me for like 45 seconds or so…as he hopped up and down my legs two Fan-Tails fluttered with gusto about my head!…I was hoping that the tree in front of me would take -on an Ent-like disposition and start dancing with me to a Florence And The Machine track but I was more than happy with the bird who mistook me for Snow White.

The photo is me…and this palm-to-palm pose is what I do now when…I need to focus and be grateful…to give thank’s and to set an intention.  Yep I went through an ew-patch but….its passed…they always do sweety’s…and hey I know there will be another tricky time in the future…that ‘s the ol life-trip deal…but for now I am thankful for The Lesson…LIFE IS MAGICAL…and I’m flowing with The Go….xxx

The Cats out of the Bag

Hi Moonbeams.  So I am still in the in-between. Living out of the suitcase.  Still trying to find a nest for The Angel Child and myself.  Grateful for the thing’s I DO have though at the beginning and at the end of each day. I am experiencing a lot of block’s….there isn’t ‘flow’ flowing….and um…that I am figuring that that is down to me with a little ‘wait a minute’ thrown in there from The Universe…

Where I am staying there is a cat.  Poor poppet…she was a feral rescue cat and she has the personality of a Tasmanian Devil.  She’s cute when she’s asleep kinda thing.  I call her Happy. When you name a thing sometimes miracles can happen etc etc.  Anyhoo…in the room I am in…that has 942 of my belongings piled in with me….there is the bed in the far corner.  She has taken to sleeping on it…and um…throws her jaw open and spits and hisses whenever I get near.  She usually sleeps on the top of the bed but this morning I went to get a cup of tea then came back to bedroom, threw the cover back and she launched herself at me like….well….something that was NOT ‘happy’.  On another occasion she stood behind the net curtain on the window sill looking like the Bride of Frankenstein…I thought she looked quite beautiful and the sound that she was able to produce without moving her lip’s moved me, in as much as…that I felt compelled to leave the room post haste.  Last night my little dog and I were sleeping…(yes we managed to claim the bed! Happy wasn’t there! Oh the relief!!) I was dozing off turned over and her shadow was this time on the outside of the window back-lit by the street-light’s…The song Memories from Cat’s came to mind…perhaps sung by Marilyn Manson rather than Elaine Page….

My point is…through all this transition and all the icky roller-coastery bit’s that go with, Happy the cat has made me laugh. As scare-bear as she is she claim’s her life and her position with the utmost of all certainty….she makes her boundaries CLEAR and….has a gift for creatively coming up with how to scare the beejeez out of me two or three times a day… I wont forget her when I’ve gone…even though I am sure she will be pleased to see the back of me and my side-kick canine….blessssssssss.xx

Mamma says…’Rise and Shine….NOW’!

I am soooo grateful to that retrograde storm that crashed through my life a few weeks back.  I felt the Goddess Kali around me like a cruel-to-be-kind Mother she came in shrilling, tongue out, eyes glaring telling me to WAKE UP CHILD! WAKE UP FROM YOUR IGNORANT SLEEP! AWAKEN AT ONCE!  She demonstrates no mercy when she wants you to see what she wants you to see…I remember going to the mirror in my bathroom and looking deep into my eyes and gasping….I saw ‘the truth’ staring back at me…it was almost like an out-of-body type of thing, I had split into two, I was looking at myself as another person…it was one of the most surreal moments of my life….it was almost like my soul, my Higher Self was staring back at Tracey the Human Being and in that moment I was confronted by all that I had created for her in this lifetime….the good the bad and the otherwise. I was hiding.  Hiding behind the day-to-day stuff, ‘acting’ as if everything was just peachy.  I heard Freddy Mercury sing out “Oh yes I’m the great pretender….’ on the radio a day or two before my ‘awakening’ and I had to turn it off as the anger it brought up in me…..it was so telling.

I have packed a bag and left a thing.  I have left an energy not akin to the essence of my own.  I have put the lie down called it a lesson and walked away with my head to the sun even though my heart felt battered and bruised by a darkened night…a mis-guided chapter or two that I had purposely written in secret invisible ink.

There are people today who have limited or no freedom to choose….there are people on our earth today who are too afraid to make a decision for their highest good and so tonight will close their eyes and awaken to the same reality tomorrow. I am so conscious of these human being’s at this time….they are in my thoughts and prayers 24/7 it seems…I am so blessed to be in the position of choice, reflection and healing….I am so blessed to have friends. I am so blessed. I remember getting a class full of children to show me what freedom looked like and they all just started laughing and twirling and rolling on the floor and tickling and hugging each other. Beautiful.xxxx

Murky Merc…the Torch In Your Face Planet

Oh my Mercury Moonbeam’s of Retro FullMoony….Ness!!! Is everyone ok?!! Got any denial happening? Any issues that have been in your tissues that should of left the building with Elvis year’s ago?MMMM? How bout any relationship’s that are full of funk and gunk and vampire teeth that are still hanging around your neck like a necklace made from bulldozer chain?  Never fear my twinkle-star’s because I know just the thing that will clear those thing’s up in the blink of a crossed, bloodshot eyeball….it’s called a retrograde glass of whiskey with full-moonbeam shots added for extra……….zip. (oh…maybe I should of used a more health conscious smoothie as my drink of example….meh….)

I sure have been feeling my karma.  I wonder if you have been experiencing a little torch -of -truth shinning in your eyes too?

For a couple of day’s I felt a situation (in my life) building…a situation that needed to explode in hindsight as I was just plain out-right IGNORING what I knew had to be done….and as we know sweetheart’s…when we keep ignoring The Universe’s messages…I don’t even have to finish that sentence…you know the deal.

If you find yourself in deep, reflective-intense water at this time…I know its cold…I know its dark..but put your palms together or open your arm’s wide…and look down…your in it only waste deep…there is still air flowing in and out of your lung’s…your ok.  Pray it up. Chant it out. Look around you. Feel the good the bad and the unidentified….acknowledge it all be GRATEFUL for it ALL…yeah tough…especially when your looking at the scarier bits….but if you acknowledge, then and only then can you truely go forwards with the sorting….the releasing…and the loving yourself anyways steps that follow on. Don’t be afraid to spend time in THAT water…(yes I know you forgot to take your robe off before you entered and it’s clinging like co-dependent kelp to your flawless body but it add’s to the moonlit look me think’s)….The Universe….Love’s you…to your soul and back…wants you to have your BEST life…so come on now…remember to attend to your garden when the weed’s are starting to come through rather than when they are are spreading out of control and restricting your precious life-force energy….

I love you Moonbeam’s.  Don’t forget…..to love you too…..xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Stars Apart in the Galaxy of Oneness

Sometimes you can say things to a dear-one and YOU believe that in that moment…that you are telling the truth.  You also perhaps take a good chunk of time to think BEFORE you speak and you then spend a day or two constructing and preparing with great care the right words so as to (hopefully) strike an honest balance between ‘speaking YOUR truth’ and being sensitive to the loved-ones feelings simultaneously. You pray on it, then you say what you want to say to the loved-one…then it all turns into a big, angry, hot, septic, high-voltage…..mess.  The loved-one feels attacked, YOU feel completely misinterpreted and attacked back, you try to explain….but the loved-one is sooo deeply offended or hurt or confused or all three and more….that…for ‘the time being’ no resolution it seems can be found and the silence that then falls after an emotional battle…or any kind of battle on this planet…ring’s loud-in-void in your ear, run’s sad, helpless blood through your veins and makes your heart beat tears.  IT SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS WHEN THIS HAPPENS IN LIFE WITH SOMEONE THAT AT THE END OF THE DAY AND NIGHT AND TIME….YOU LOVE WITH ALL YOUR SOUL-HEART.

I don’t know Moonbeams what I am going to do or how I am going to fix this situation.  I have chanted and prayed about it and I got..’.just leave it for now and send yourself, the loved-one and the situation itself love and flowers and angels and light.’..so I am going with that particular flow of Heavenly advice for now….letting myself feel whatever it is that comes up…but always making a conscious spiritual choice to end any thoughts about this….in LOVE.

Sometimes two people…just need a little time apart…its tough…you miss em…you want to fix it all up and get back to hanging out.  Do I regret saying what I wanted to say that day?…No…I NEEDED to speak my truth in the name of my own journey…I just didn’t expect nor intend for one minute this level of fall-out…oh well…I guess you get that.  Anyway my little moon-boots…I’m sending you lot’s of sparkles of zesty color-pop’s and I will let you know how I go….Have an exceptional full-moon night of happiness.xxx

Eat, Pray (on your mobile) Love

So I was walking into the township this morn, (overly swinging my arm’s I noticed, which mean’s that I was in a particularly snazzaroo mood) so I decided to start a conversation with God in my head.  I wanted to chat about my day ahead, ask for a little guidance, give a little thank’s for the ‘do have’s’, send the world a little love etc etc…get the day’s structure set-up nicely with a big ol juicy prayer…well..ah….ya…I, (as it turn’s out) I really suck at walking, talking and praying silently inside this skull of mine….meh!…what can I say…I kept getting all distracted….looking at stuff.  You can’t start a prayer and call-in all your spiritual being’s then trail off patting cat’s and sniffing flower’s and checking your hair in parked car window reflection’s…( ya I woke up with frizz ok…what can I say it get’s me a little paranoid.)

I could just imagine my spiritual team on High that I had invited in looking at each other, rolling their eye’s, looking at their Timeless Watches (there is no ‘time’ as such in Heaven) maybe making such comment’s as ‘Oh bless her day-dreamy heart but that child of God makes me feel like I am going to be late even though I am a being of an Omnipresent nature!’

Then it came to me…I needed to SPEAK-my-prayer.  I wasn’t quite comfortable with walking along the street talking out loud( I’ll get there one day) so I thought…I know!…I  will speak my prayer into my cell-phone!….Genius!….Madness! Genius-Madness! Whatever…it worked a treat! Prayer Complete. Soo….if like me you are distracted hugely by even a leaf falling from a tree  then this is the way to do go my little Moonbeam’s….0800CALLTHECOSMOS….XXXXXXXXXXXX

Earth Mamma!!!!!!!!!

Hi my Smiley Happy People Holding Hand’s!!!!!!!!!!!!

Before I even start my post I am sending you these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx! And these ************…that’s like an entire bunch of people joining together about to give you the biggest group hug ever!…oh what?…Wait.. Here come’s ANOTHER group of them….

*******************************************************************************************************************…wow!…now THAT would be the hug of all hug’s!

My friend’s I have had an interesting week…a week of Let-Go and a week of Awakening’s.  My beloved daughter is in her last year of high-school and as I watched her meet her friend’s to go to school for the start of term on Monday wearing her own clothes (year 13 student’s only do not require a uniform)…I thought…Look at that beautiful young woman…the little 5 year old child ,with her hair in two cute plait’s wearing her school back-pack with beaming ‘big girl’ pride….just for a moment fleeting, I pictured her as that little-one walking alongside this beautiful young woman…and I burst into tear’s…my heart turning over and over in love for the soul that chose me to Mother her on this Earth Plane…the last seventeen year’s of my life I have walked alongside the most kindred spirit that I have ever encountered.  I am blessed beyond measure.

I also have decided to become Vegan.  This decision and commitment to become fully devoted to this particular life-choice has brought me the most amazing gift’s…even in the three day’s that I have ‘officially declared’ my intention.  This way-of-living is for me the perfect marriage between my own personal truth and my reality…thank God I have finally given myself permission to be exactly who I want to be!

I am going to make my life-purpose evolve further out of Living This Way, teaching This Way, Helping ALL Other’s This Way, Giving Joy and Compassion This Way, Creating Work’s of Art with Heart in The Message… I am so happy I could burst! But bursting would be a little counter-productive under the circumstance’s…Ha ha!

I love this planet so much…I just never knew just how much until this dawn of enlightenment shone down upon me this last week.  I cherish Hope and Faith more than ever…I know my dear friend’s that it is SO exhausting to keep believing when bad thing’s happen and happen again, and the pain…oh the pain…the grasping, the desperate yearning to WANT to be able to make it……………………………………………….stop.

Let’s control what we CAN control 100% every single day….let’s pledge to make it continuously……………..start………….the Good that is…the endless Good, the unconditional Good, the compassionate GOOD…keep seeing it, speaking it, hearing it, actioning it, offering it, BEING it.

We are here for such a short time…no matter the time you are born into…make it a GOOD time unto other’s and eternal LOVE will be your deeply appreciated legacy and the most unimaginable glorious LOVE will be your infinite promise when God call’s you home.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

The Tea of Truth…

Hi Moonbeam’s of Light and Magical Dust Matter that matter’s….

I asked the Universe the other night…”Hey Love…could you please tell me what you most want me to keep in my mind for 2015?”…and I got within two second’s…STAND YOUR GROUND AND LET YOUR COLOR’S FLOW!!….oh….o.k.

I needed confirmation from a human being on this( I felt the Universe tisktisk and put hand’s on hip’s, but hey, the Universe know’s that I have the odd self-belief issue here and there and often require a second opinion on the Earth Plane ) so I texted my friend Rose and said..Rose could you pull a card for me with the question in mind for me being…What do I need to keep in mind for 2015… Out of 72 card’s after ten minute’s she sent through a card that read…STAND YOUR GROUND IN THE TRUTH OF WHO YOU ARE.  oh…ok.  Thank you Rose, you may return to the garden my lovely friend.

Soooo….I made tea and took it outside and sipped at it under the night’s blue-black sky.

“So Trace…(yes that is me talking to myself out loud)…what do you think that is all about?”

I inhaled deeply and exhaled deeper.

‘Put ALL your color’s down upon your 44th canvass this year, tell The Story, tell The Truth, Be Bold, Be Love, Be!!.’

I smiled at my word’s spoken out loud (from myself, to myself, about myself).

My body felt electric and peaceful all at once….and that…

was the End to my Beginning….xxxxxx

Quiet little Fish….

You stole my tide…..my sea of plenty

and fed it to the toi toi’s saw-like teeth.

When I lay sleeping

you slipped a fish-hook to my tongue to

reel me in…

should I say too much.

You gifted me a pretty dress

lined in a fisherman’s net

to remind me that I AM your flotsam…caught.

You invite my bone’s to swim with your’s…

I break-surface to find you laughing-cruel upon the rock’s, and

again I’m slick with oil.

This environmental disaster

makes you not my master.

I still have in my hand

one tiny grain of sand…

There-in sit’s….

MY PROMISED LAND