I am so darn happy I could go to a forest and hug sixty tree’s! Whoa there Tonto….wait…I did already!
I am not a one-way-or-no-way kinda being….I have a HUGE respect for the big ol wide gambit of ALL creature’s…everything under the Sun and Moon and everything beyond them….whoever you are…whatever you believe in…I am only ever going to come at ya in LOVE. If your a mean person who does mean thing’s intentionally to creature’s then I am not going to align myself with you but I will always ask the Universe…ALL the Higher Power’s to ‘go to you now’ to give you Medicine….in which ever way ‘they’ see fit…I will always pray ‘For the Highest Good of ALL’…if I don’t understand, if I am confused to the point of numbness…then I have to ‘hand it over and UP’….in the name of Love.
I have stopped falling down the rabbit-hole…those last few months….ew!…ME NOT LIKE! Well lets face it…change is always only going to be comfortable or wet-socks kinda torrential… Well in that case I had wet hair, wet pants, and mascara melted into my cheek-bones…my heart was all raw and weepy and when I looked into the mirror I saw like a 100 year old Death-Metal-Band- member version of my Mother starring back at me…(you know what I mean Ma…stress is a tad aging and um….visually concerning.)
I really am in a new Wonderland…feeling much better and then some! Not wanting to blow my own pan-pipe or anything but the other day a sparrow flew onto my lap in the forest and stayed there twittering beautifully to me for like 45 seconds or so…as he hopped up and down my legs two Fan-Tails fluttered with gusto about my head!…I was hoping that the tree in front of me would take -on an Ent-like disposition and start dancing with me to a Florence And The Machine track but I was more than happy with the bird who mistook me for Snow White.
The photo is me…and this palm-to-palm pose is what I do now when…I need to focus and be grateful…to give thank’s and to set an intention. Yep I went through an ew-patch but….its passed…they always do sweety’s…and hey I know there will be another tricky time in the future…that ‘s the ol life-trip deal…but for now I am thankful for The Lesson…LIFE IS MAGICAL…and I’m flowing with The Go….xxx
Hi Moonbeams. So I am still in the in-between. Living out of the suitcase. Still trying to find a nest for The Angel Child and myself. Grateful for the thing’s I DO have though at the beginning and at the end of each day. I am experiencing a lot of block’s….there isn’t ‘flow’ flowing….and um…that I am figuring that that is down to me with a little ‘wait a minute’ thrown in there from The Universe…
Where I am staying there is a cat. Poor poppet…she was a feral rescue cat and she has the personality of a Tasmanian Devil. She’s cute when she’s asleep kinda thing. I call her Happy. When you name a thing sometimes miracles can happen etc etc. Anyhoo…in the room I am in…that has 942 of my belongings piled in with me….there is the bed in the far corner. She has taken to sleeping on it…and um…throws her jaw open and spits and hisses whenever I get near. She usually sleeps on the top of the bed but this morning I went to get a cup of tea then came back to bedroom, threw the cover back and she launched herself at me like….well….something that was NOT ‘happy’. On another occasion she stood behind the net curtain on the window sill looking like the Bride of Frankenstein…I thought she looked quite beautiful and the sound that she was able to produce without moving her lip’s moved me, in as much as…that I felt compelled to leave the room post haste. Last night my little dog and I were sleeping…(yes we managed to claim the bed! Happy wasn’t there! Oh the relief!!) I was dozing off turned over and her shadow was this time on the outside of the window back-lit by the street-light’s…The song Memories from Cat’s came to mind…perhaps sung by Marilyn Manson rather than Elaine Page….
My point is…through all this transition and all the icky roller-coastery bit’s that go with, Happy the cat has made me laugh. As scare-bear as she is she claim’s her life and her position with the utmost of all certainty….she makes her boundaries CLEAR and….has a gift for creatively coming up with how to scare the beejeez out of me two or three times a day… I wont forget her when I’ve gone…even though I am sure she will be pleased to see the back of me and my side-kick canine….blessssssssss.xx
There is a dude (a totally cool dude) who lives in my community who dresses like a superherowrestler. I have never seen him in jeans and a t-shirt…he is always wearing his own creation’s. I was waiting for a bus the other day and he came and sat down next to me and we had the most awesome conversation about self-expression and the weather elements and art and food and quills and writing poetry…then he announced that he had decided to go to the library so bid me a farewell, swooped and swished his cape and left…billowing down the street then vanishing into thin air (ok so he turned right and disappeared…I lied about the last bit.)
He is such a happy, articulate man…well spoken with a chilled-out peaceful vibe…it was such a pleasure to of had a chatter with him…the fact that he was dressed in a long glorious cape, gloves up to his elbow’s and pointy boots with lightening bolts and the biggest belt with belt-buckle that I have ever seen…made it even more unusual and wonderful and refreshing.
In the fifteen minutes we chatted…yep….driver’s drove by and looked…people walked by and looked…and I thought about it later…that pretty much everyone looked the same way….the furrowed brow of confusion/interest and the half-smile and the tilt of the head…furrow, half-smile, tilt…the ‘what the?’ look…it was everywhere.
Every now and then my new friend (I never asked his name, he never mentioned it), would say a perky and yet peaceful sounding ‘Goodmorning!’ to a passer-by and it seemed to be( for most anyhoo) a furrow-half-smile-tilt -evaporator….’oh…goodmorning…’ most people replied back instantly…a few others just looked down or away or continued on by with the half-smile without the ‘good-morning’ returned.
I’m not going to make a comment on what I have written above…human nature is what it is… but I will say that there are people in this world who dress in jeans and a t-shirt and are superhero’s in life and there are even some people who are superhero’s in life and choose to dress outwardly as superhero’s when they get up in the morning…and I think that THAT is fricken awesome…. I wish him a happy life with all my heart xxxxxxxxxx